...ohhh the wait! =x

So on Friday during dinner, my boyfriend said that was happy that morning because he received a "text from someone about something for me." We then proceeded to talk about diamonds and rings, etc. Eeek!

A few months ago, he had showed me texted pictures from the jeweler of a ring that was in process of being made. He wanted my opinion because he was not sure about it..I thought it looked unique and would have been happy with it. Then a few weeks after that, he said the ring was completed but that he decided he did not like it and wanted it redone. It had been about a month and a half since he mentioned anything about the ring..at one point I was convinced he may have just given up on it or was pulling my leg about it being redone.

Sigh of relief that he was working on another ring..and that it is probably done!

Sooo wondering when it's going to happen...!

Revisting

It has been ~3.5 years since my last post...I have been dating my current boyfriend for nearly 3 years (another month makes 3 years). How is this blog still online!? I have to admit, it was bittersweet to read though my past posts. It was a tough time in my life..and reading it reminded me of the roller coaster that it was.

So, it seems that I termed this blog a "love diary"..how fitting, years later..I am back to write about my love life.

Things are looking up, but I don't want to be too positive for fear of disappointment as documented by previous posts. I'm with someone I love..and dare I say, we're "planning" to get engaged. Planning because the girl doesn't do anything but wait - so I should say, HE's planning for us to get engaged. There is probably a ring in existence, I saw a "rough draft" of it on his iphone..not yet buffed and polished..and separately in another picture, the diamond in a jeweler's hand. About a month after showing me these pictures, he asks whether he should just get a ring with a basic setting and I choose what I want later..or get the actual ring with setting. I was like..uhh..thought you had a ring?! Then, somehow that turned to he didn't like the ring and is getting it changed..but I may have put those words in his mouth. A few days later, I caved and asked if there even was a ring?! The slight smile on his face as he comforted me put me at ease a bit..but still!

Perhaps I am not painting the full picture. We are HAPPY, he is SWEET..I'm in a wonderful, loving relationship. I have only good things to say about us.

So I wait..so I dream..

:)

What Drama!

I don't even know where this drama comes from, but I think it successfully finds it way to me!

So yesterday, the "hot" guy I saw from time to time (who I had decided not to see anymore) was tagged in a picture on his facebook kissing a girl on NYE! I am not sure how I feel about the whole thing. I liked him being single, but I can't "keep him around." I knew it was gonna happen sooner or later that he would find someone that actually likes him back. Boy toy, gone. I defriended him. I figured it's healthier for me than to snoop on him periodically. Now I'm kind of wondering what's going on on his facebook :P.

Also last night, I decided to randomly look for a guy on facebook who I dated in between my ex. A bit of history, I had semi broken up with my ex at the time and randomly ran into this guy right after the break up. I had a hard time letting go of my ex and ended up hanging out with both guys at the same time. Well, I got caught by my ex. The end of it was, I ended up going back to my ex. Boy was that a mistake! Anyways, so I look him up and guess what? One of my really good friends is facebook friends with him. Why? Turns out they met a year after I went out with him, he must have picked her up. What a small world! It was like a twisted joke life played on me.

On the plus side of life, today the guy I met at my friend's wedding said he wants to come visit either next weekend or the weekend after. Unfortunately, I have to work both weekends :(. I texted him letting him know I have to work but can probably switch my shifts around. Kind of excited, we will see what happens! Will update again soon <3

Ok, so here's what really happened...

It has now been about 9 months out from our break-up. That fateful day, I had showed up to his house earlier than we had discussed. I brought an empty bag to pack my things as I had felt so much coldness from him that I thought there was no way our relationship could continue. I kept trying to call him, but no pick-up, even as I was calling him from his front door. His roommate let me in. I proceeded to the basement to grab my snowboard, showing my dedication to the pending break-up. Still no sight of him. I headed upstairs and opened his bedroom door...only to find a GIRL IN HIS BED. No joke, these things apparently happen in real life, NOT JUST IN THE MOVIES. He tried to hide her and asked me to leave for a bit. I yanked the sheets and there she was. I think we were both in shock. I proceeded to pack up my stuff and he followed me out to my car, trying to explain himself. That was 9 months ago. According to Facebook, they are engaged now. What a story, huh? All of it is true...I felt my life is like a book.


Where am I now?

Well, I am still single. I tried the online dating thing on eharmony.com, which amounted to nothing but a few dates with a few oddball guys. In June, I met the hottest guy I had ever been with and we still keep in touch, but he is not what I am looking for. In September, I was maid of honor for one of my best friends. The best man happened to be single, and a surgeon in his last year of training. He's kind of good looking too and somehow he is interested in me! But here's the caveat - he lives in another state and has only come back to visit once. His family is here and he wants to come here to work. BUT he has only been back ONCE since the wedding. We spent 3 days together (or partial days, at night) while he was here. I understand he is busy with work/residency, but surely he could come back more often? So that's where I'm at.

In a week, I'm going SPEED DATING. Lets see how that goes...I am excited, but at the same time, afraid to be disappointed. I will update with the "results."

Terminated

That's our relationship. We broke up. Now, onto the next chapter of my life which right now is full of friends and family. We'll see when I am ready to date again...

Tomorrow I get to see him again

That sounds bad, doesn't it? Ugh. Anyways, we are meeting up tomorrow to talk about things. The conversation probably won't change anything. No matter how long we talk (and we spent over 2.5hrs on the phone from the past night and this morning), we won't be able to predict the future. I feel I am more positive, but I can turn my back and change a lot quicker, whereas he is being a little more negative but I know he wouldn't just give up on our relationship and date someone else as quickly as I would. *sigh*.

I guess I was blindsighted

Those "ring" cues were, while sincere, not fully thought out. He has realized that getting engaged is not a possibility with a 3 yr long distance relationship on the horizon. Also, his current savings will only get him through 6-7 months rent up by the school. That translates to: no money. When we initially talked about getting engaged, it was with the thought that he would not be starting school until at least the Fall or Winter. This school admitting early sort of threw us for a loop. It would not be logical for him not to attend, it is a great opportunity.

We discussed the harsh realities tonight, not knowing what to do. The program he is accepted into is so intense that he will have very little free time. Neither of us want to give up the relationship, but what can we possibly do? It was a very sad, weepy and grim discussion.

I guess I will continue blogging on what will be a turbulent relationship to come.